Perpetrator- You Are Messed Up Too

I have gone through an array of emotions through the healing process. It seems to me that there are people out there with incredible blockages to their true self, health and well-being. Although power and incredible resources can seem to make you feel good, they are not the source of happiness and can create or keep you in despair, stagnation and devolution. The perpetrators that wielded power over me gave up their real power. They turned their power over to immediate gratification and ego inflation. If you are a perpetrator and reading this, know that you need help as well to be at peace with your soul. You can’t destroy or harm someone without destroying the very thing that connects you to your creator. It may feel good momentarily to wield power over someone…even to take their life. What you just did destroys something inside of you. Maybe it was already destroyed and that is why you are compelled to destroy this in others. It comes from a place of darkness and disconnection. You may laugh at what you perceive as weakness, tears from someone’s pain gives you a rush, pushing them to do something against their will gives you a sense of strength. But it is just the opposite.  History is full of psychopathic deviants and messed up people acting out. I’m not saying we all need to be Pollyanna’s or provide safe space for each other. True strength can only come from self-respect and insight. There is strength in wisdom and allowing people to be weak without taking advantage of them. There is no other investment worth the time and energy into facing who you are. You may suffer great pain and never let anyone know. You may be the bully but behind that is a pattern of not seeing your own value. Putting someone down to make yourself feel good is destructive and not productive. Perhaps the perception you have is that they are trying to harm you. That might very well be the case. As a nurse, even when I was only there to help and assist. I was punched in the face, had poo flung at me, was bitten and was called an assortment of hurtful names by people who were in mental and physical pain. It is normal to feel attacked and be on the defense when feeling vulnerable. When you experience someone attacking you physically or verbally do you escalate the situation or deescalate the situation by recognizing their feelings of frustration, anger, fear or confusion? If humans on this planet can transcend the need for hate, wars, greed, violence then why not let that start with you? It is a challenge. I believe you can reach your optimal potential no matter how much evil is in the world. But you must make a choice.

• The Health Angel